Thursday, June 8, 2017

Untangling the Knot

You think about a lot of things while standing at the helm and steering a 140-foot-long tall ship.  Like the drift of the swell that rocks the Seamans, my mind often wanders off over the horizon and into ill-explored territory.  Lately, this has varied from wracking my brain for the lyrics to "Jessie's Girl" to wondering whether anyone could make a wrap-up of all the news we've missed, Liz Lemon-style. 
The tangled threads of my thoughts often lead back to a central knot.  I've been turning it over again and again, but there seems to be no unraveling it.  What I've been trying to get at with my thoughts and my contemplating and my mental poking and prodding is a feeling I have in the part of my mind that doesn't think.  The issue at hand is that the big picture, the basic undertaking of this experience-sailing through the Pacific-doesn't feel real to me.  I look out over the seemingly endless expanse of the sea and something in my brain gets jammed up.  The message doesn't translate from my brain to my heart.  As a result, a sense of wonder gets lost, and I feel no differently than when I look out a car window or out my front door.  Maybe it's sensory overload, or maybe it's how far-flung this experience is from any other I've ever had, but there's a disconnect between what I know is happening and what I feel.
You've probably experienced a similar dissonance between the head and the heart.  A good example is an irrational fear-you tell yourself that the thing won't hurt you, but the fear you have is deep down in an unreachable place.  We have our conscious thoughts, which are completely within our control, and then we have the things we really feel in our guts.  These feelings can't be easily created or changed through conscious thought.  I can tell myself that I'm on a boat in the middle of the Pacific Ocean, but feeling that in my gut is an entirely different beast. 
It's not that everything about the trip has felt unreal.  Picking through zooplankton at 4 AM feels real.  Deep-cleaning the heads on field day definitely feels real.  But when I look out into the vastness of the ocean, something doesn't click.  What I'm seeing sits at the surface of my understanding and goes no deeper.
In the first half of the voyage, this was cause for panic.  I think that gut understanding is vital to actually experiencing something, as opposed to just going through it.  I don't want to live my life just going through things, especially as unique an experience as this.  I wanted to untangle the knot, to make the connection click.  A part of me also hoped that the problem would work itself out on its own.
The problem did not work itself out on its own.  While we were anchored at Palmerston, I went up into the rigging to take some time to do nothing but sit and think, of which there is precious little on a ship.  Aloft, I stared out over the reef for upwards of an hour.  There was no grand revelation, but I did a lot of thinking.  I thought about my processing issues, and about the worry it was causing.  The worrying is very much within my control, and I decided to rein it in.  There's no reason to add it to the existing problem.
In a way, I've given up.  I'm no longer trying to get myself to take in the overarching picture.  However, I've fully experienced plenty of small moments-the most excited I've ever been to see pasta, the hardest I've ever laughed at 5 AM, the most supported I've ever felt while being in charge and also being completely clueless-to know that a larger whole is forming.

-Emma Gee

Wednesday, June 7, 2017

Arrival at the Kingdom of Tonga

After 7 days at sea (8 if you go by the calendar), we have reached The Kingdom of Tonga. The ship's calendar shifted at midnight and, just like that, June 6th never happened on the Robert C. Seamans. However, as some other posts have touched on, time morphs into a bizarre animal when rotating through watches, weather conditions, and the ocean's restless motion. In the last week we have lost our wits in lab during dawn watches, struck and re-set the same 5 sails over and over, motored over the doldrums, and experienced a new side of sailing as Junior Watch Officers. The standard 7-day week does not make the seafaring life justice by any means; what seemed like a bittersweet goodbye at Palmerston is now a hazy memory left behind the 10 watches we have stood, the fresh sushi, the midnight cookies, and the Field Day ice cream. This ominous stretch of open-ocean sailing had been looming in the back of our heads since day 1, and now that we've sailed out of the South Pacific Gyre and into highly biologically-productive waters I think of it as an outlier in my life-a period of undetermined time (by usual notion) in which I was completely isolated with 38 of my shipmates in the middle of the vast Pacific ocean. It was a true delight to be so ever-present, and it was a true challenge to appreciate the uniqueness of each waning moment. 

But everything must come to an end, and in the last 24 hours we had our stress levels increase logarithmically as the latest details of our final 10 days aboard the ship were relayed to us. With conservation dialogues, book reviews, leading watches, and finishing the collection, analysis, and write-up of our projects in our future, the next leg of our voyage now carries a previously unexpected weight with it. In addition, the anticipation of landfall and going ashore at another new, completely different island has been building and, as we sit in the dock waiting to be released into Nuku'alofa's streets, peaked. The Kingdom of Tonga, one of the few nations in the Pacific Ocean that has never been colonized by the West, lies right past our gangway. We will be exploring its capital city until tomorrow morning, when we will depart for Vava'u, anchoring at night in a couple of the archipelago's 171 islands.

If you ask anyone on board, any given day, watch, or single duty at sea will seem to drag on forever or go by quickly depending on what that person's mood is like. Today, however, time is shifting back into normal as we step on Tongan soil, and a new dimension of our trip will begin, if only for the
20 hours we are docked in Nuku'alofa. Rest assured that we'll make the most of it.


-Diego

Sunday, June 4, 2017

Field Day on the Seamans

"Help! I've been murdered by someone on the ship, somewhere on the ship, with a specific item!"

And with that, she collapsed on the quarter deck. The time was 14:37. A light breeze wafted through the 38 others gathered for ship's meeting as the sky filled 7/8 full with cumulus clouds.

B Watch took command of the investigation, immediately producing a list of suspects, potential locations, and weaponizeable items. Murmurs of suspicion began to circulate. To my left, I overheard a hushed whisper of "I bet it was Emma in the fo'c'sle with the tepid coffee." Others suspected Jan in the galley with the hydrowinch. I myself was certain the deed had been done with concentrated Envirox cleaning solution, but held my tongue.

The solution to the mystery of Charlie's murder, it was explained, lay hidden throughout the ship in the form of small cards, reminiscent of the board game "Clue," to be found in exactly the places that were due for a deep cleaning, Field Day-style. The only way to discover the truth was to clean, so off we set, in the tradition of many a weekend ship's meeting, to scrub and polish those areas of the ship so often neglected during Daily and Galley cleans.

Field Day on the Seamans is special in many ways. It's the only time we can play music out loud, there's ice cream at the end, and we discover all the festering gunk that lives in crannies and crevices. When we're done, however, the Bobby C. is not only ready to appear in public but also just smells and feels nicer to be in. While removing all the mugs from the cupboard to wipe out each rack (as I have done twice so far) might be a bit of a shoulder strain, it is good to know that it does actually get cleaned back there.

Once the mirrors were spotless and the soles (floors) were swept, we gathered as a ship to compile the results of our sleuthing. The cards came rolling in, deftly gathered from hiding spots in the stove grease catches, under stacks of plates, in hatches, behind fire extinguishers, and in with the pots, we had a solution: third mate Rocky in the salon with the JT halyard. And we, with our steward restored to us, feasted on ice cream. The autumn heat melted my summer treat, swirling deep purple taro and pastel pistachio together in my cup.

We're headed toward Nuku'alofa, Kingdom of Tonga at decent clip and expect to arrive in two days, as much as we understand days given our 18-hour watch rotation and the impending date line crossing. There are many things to look out for when approaching land. When people before us searched for coral atolls, they looked at the undersides of clouds for the different colored reflections from shallower lagoon waters. Pacific Islanders for years have known that frigate birds venture 100nm from shore; when the first distinctive forked-tail flyer meets our ship, we'll know our range, no radar necessary. I saw a brown booby today, my first bird of any type in days.
Closer in, nighttime lights will glow on our horizon hours before the piercing silhouette of land.


We've been catching fish and shooting stars, and having one heck of a time doing it.

-Marianne Cowherd

Saturday, June 3, 2017

"Let's Go Fishening!"

"You put your fingers in the gills like this and your thumb up on top. Then just rip the head off" Jon, the 18 year old Palmerstonian with a full, curly black beard, demonstrated the technique on a 12 inch long pink and silver parrot fish. Standing with waves breaking at our knees, Dylan, the engineer, and I tried and failed to repeat the process on two more parrot fish fish caught in the hand-woven net.  Jon came over to show us again. We moved down the net repeating the process as we went.  By the time we reached the end of the net, 6 parrot fish lay motionless in the bottom of our dinghy: Five of them a drab pinkish silver color but one is a bright blue color with pink stripes and a protruding forehead. Edward, Jon's dad and the island policeman, looked into the hull shaking his head and said, "Not a good catch. We will have to cast the net again".

Jon and Edward had told me earlier that morning that on a single day of fishing they can catch between three hundred and four hundred parrotfish.
These algavores are essential to maintaining the heath of the coral reefs surrounding Palmerston, but are also are the major export from the island, fetching $10 per kilo of fillet. At the peak of the parrot fish trade in the 1970's Palmerston's 50 or so fishermen exported 90 tons of parrotfish to Rarotonga, but now that number is much lower: they send between 600 and 800 kilos of parrot fish per cargo ship (3 to 4 times a year). A part of me worried that I was contributing to this reduction of parrot fish abundance on the reef, but at the moment all I could think about was not getting knots in the net as we prepared to cast it again.
We start piling the 40m long net into our dingy; one person pulling the edge with floats tied to it and the other unwrapping the lead weighted edge from around rocks underwater. With the net folded back into the homemade boat, fashioned out of half a kayak that had washed ashore, we walk out farther towards the reef break. Suddenly Jon holds up his hand and says "Stop". He points to a nondescript part of the blue water in front of us. He whispers, "Look there- there are a whole bunch of parrot fish- you can see their tails coming out of the water" I look and nod even though I can't see them. Jon turns to Dylan and me to hash out the game plan.
"Edward is laying the net down there (pointing to the ocean side of us), I am going to walk around the fish and you two stay here and be really quiet. When I say go we all have to run towards the net slapping the water".
He slaps the water with his 10 foot wooden spear to demonstrate. Dylan on my right also holds a long, sanded down wooden pole, in my hands a baseball hat will serve as my splashing instrument.
Dylan and I wait as Jon almost tip toes across the reef, the water barely coming up to his ankles at this point. Once in position, Jon holds up his arm like an official starting runners for a track race. He shouts "Go" and we begin sprinting, tripping, and splashing our way over blocks of coral towards the net about thirty yards away.
"Over there! Don't let them get away." Eddie points to a hole between the edge of the net and our advance, to which Jon threw his spear flying in that general direction sending water spraying in all directions.
We splashed the rest of the way to the net. Upon getting there, I look down to see blood dribbling from my left shin into the water from where I fell and scraped it on coral during the mad dash. Looking at the net, parrot fish can be seen every couple of feet, tails wriggling in vain. The four of us separate and go down the net kinking necks and then stringing the fish onto the prongs of Jon's rusty three pronged spear.  We fill up all three prongs in about twenty feet of netting, to which Jon remarks, "This is a good catch. When we get home I will fry them up and we can have lunch."
We empty the net, filled with almost forty fish, and then load the net back into the dingy. Towing the dingy by a rope, we step over coral heads protruding from the surface all the way back to the larger aluminum boat.  Dylan meanwhile was trying his hand at spear fishing.  Once at the larger aluminum boat, Edward ties the line with fish onto the back of it, takes out a knife and slices open the underside of one of the parrot fish, exposing its innards.
Jon then takes his hand and shows us how how to remove the guts from inside of the fish then throwing them into the sharky waters around us. We work our way down all of the fish, our hands covered in the gritty coral pieces that had been digesting inside.
Edward asks me to lift the fish into the aluminum boat, but the catch is too heavy for me to lift on my own. It ends up taking all of us in the small boat hoisting the line to get all the fish on board.
We motor back to Ed's house where a wheelbarrow waits for us on the beach. We load the fish in the wheelbarrow and push it to a table under a tree where all the other men of the family, David, Simon and Sione (our Tongan observer) are gathered sharpening knives. They quickly set up a four-step assembly line on each side of the table with the first person cutting two skin-on filets, the second slicing off the skin from the filet, the third deboning the filet, and then the last person wrapping groups of filets in plastic wrap for export.  I am stationed at the third position. Jon takes the first fillet that his brother David throws across the table and shows me how to hold the filet in my hand and carefully cut out the five pectoral bones in a v-shaped cut.
In the center of the the table there is a glass dish filled with coconut milk and lime. Each person in the the assembly line throws bits of fish they missed while cutting the filets into the dish, creating instant sashimi. When we finish, 12 neat packets of fish fillets lay on the table.
David then takes a cleaver and begins cutting up the fish ribs for our fish fry lunch. I go over to Bob's, the father of Madenia and Henry whom I drew pictures with the other day, to give his daughter a pencil sharpener.
When I get to the table outside of Edward's, it is stacked with plates of steaming fried fish. Jon serves up fresh papaya juice and we all eat until nothing is left except clean bones.
At that point I have to bid my goodbyes and return to the ship to start on my watch standing duties. When I get up to leave, Eddie brings out all the fish I thought they were going to export. "A gift" he tells me and loads it all into the aluminum boat.
I thank them and when we return to the ship gift Jon with the rain boots I bought in Tahiti, since the ones he uses to fish are developing holes on the sides.
Back on board, the parrot fish fillets become our next two meals.
I help Charlie first make grilled parrot fish in a red curry sauce for dinner that night and then for lunch the next day we batter and fry the last of the parrot fish, the final remnant of the fishing trip as we sail away from Palmerston through the open ocean towards Tonga.

Friday, June 2, 2017

Crew Spotlight: Bryan

Next up on crew spotlights is one of our newest shipmates, Dr. Bryan Barney.  Bryan joined us at our last port stop, Rarotonga, and has been a very knowledgeable and helpful resource for some of us in science and project work.  He is a research scientist who is fascinated by the melding of different fields, such as genetics and computer science, and he self-describes himself as a molecular ecologist and a nerd.  Bryan has many scattered interests, but at the core truly cares about what matters to him: family and marine life.  When he's not spending time with his wife and 8 year-old daughter, Bryan dabbles with his saltwater aquariums and the occasional nerdy board game.  Originally, he worked with pharmaceuticals and biotech, but has since transitioned to teaching and post-doctorate activities.  On board the Robert C. Seamans, Bryan is performing PCR experiments on the environmental DNA (eDNA) we collect from our water samples.  It is thought to be the first time PCR has ever been performed on a ship! When asked what's the hardest thing for him to explain, he said it would be dispelling the myth that everything is caused by genetics alone.  Here's Bryan:

- Robby Haag

BRYAN

Hometown: San Jose, CA

Hobbies: Reef aquariums, nerdy board games

Favorite Book:  Steinbeck's Log from the Sea of Cortez or Cannery Row, anything Steinbeck really

Favorite Vacation Spot: Maui

What draws you to sailing: Adventure and a historical connection to early naturalists like Darwin or Wallace!

What are you looking forward to most on this trip: Sequencing on-board!

Favorite sea creature (or the one you relate with the most: The lowly nudibranch - so cool!

QUOTES ABOUT BRYAN:

Bryan is the ship's DNA dad 
   -a Stanford@SEA student

Even though he just joined the ship, Bryan takes care of us all.  He drove us all over Rarotonga to collect samples for our projects.  He waited for two hours on the beach in the rainstorm while we collected algae from the lagoon.
   - a Stanford@SEA student

I'm always inspired by how hard Bryan works.  You can always find him working away in the lab or reading up on what he's studying.  He's a wonderful teacher and always excited to share his knowledge.

   -a Stanford@SEA student

Thursday, June 1, 2017

Update from Rob Dunbar

Dear Reader,
We've just passed our halfway day for Stanford@SEA 2017. As a veteran of over 100 oceanographic voyages, some of them nearly 3 months long, I can tell you that such days are always cause for comment and sometimes cause for celebration. The halfway day is most often called hump day, suggestive of a certain eagerness to soon be done with the sea and all that voyaging upon it entails. Not so the mood on the Robert C. Seamans. The occasion of our halfway day has mostly been met with incredulity at the speed with which our time at sea together is passing. Our students are mindful of how much class work lies ahead and the diminishing hours available to complete assignments. Yet we also anticipate great adventuring in the company of friends as we approach the islands of Tonga and probe the mysteries of this seldom studied reach of the ocean.

As an instructor for Stanford@SEA I am taken aback by how much our students have learned and how quickly they have done so. In less than three weeks our class has transformed itself from novice sailors and apprentice scientists to a team of skilled shipmates now calling out sail handling and gear deployment commands and conducting their research


projects with acumen and skill. As a parent myself I can tell the parents tracking this blog that you have raised a fantastically capable and caring cohort of young people. It is classes like this that remind me that I have the best job on Earth. And the simple fact is this job is great fun.

I've attached a few photos from our time at Palmerston Atoll. You'll hear mostly about the people of Palmerston in our blog posts but I hope you can see in our aerial and underwater images how otherworldly this place is. Some of the colors and patterns of the Palmerston seascape challenge our comprehension, yet we immediately see beauty in them. Although I have come to think of the outsides of coralline atolls as centers of action for research here I include photos of the Palmerston lagoon and patch reefs. This lagoon is vibrantly alive in ways that so many lagoons across the Pacific are no longer. There are hundreds if not thousands of large patch reefs on the inside, and they serve as key habitat for fish, sharks, clams, and algae. Seeing a lagoon full of life and clear, clean water, and doing so in the company of so many smart and innovative young people......it gives me hope that we can address some of the challenges facing the remote islands of the Pacific.

-Rob Dunbar

Paradigm Shifts

Our voyage so far has been filled with surreal experiences.  Jumping off the bowsprit into the open ocean and seeing only blue under your feet. Standing fifty feet aloft in the rigging, staring down over everything else. Watching whales surf the waves along our ship.  One of the strangest experiences I've had so far, though, hasn't been any sort of crazy ship shenanigan, but rather involves a certain Canadian TA named Andrew (who may alternatively be referred to as Princess, depending on your willingness to accept the name giving abilities of a six-year-old girl.  She named me Lovely, so I'd say she knows what she's doing).

Here are some facts about Andrew/Princess:  Andrew is a 29-year-old grad student in Dr. Dunbar's lab studying the Antarctic.  He is from Calgary but went to school in England.  He and I were both in Introduction to Physical Oceanography last quarter.  In that class, he would sit in the front row every single day and chat it up with the professor.  One of those people.

Here are some facts about me as they relate to Andrew:  I wrote Andrew off as an uptight know-it-all about a week into IPO.  When asked to describe him by a fellow student, my response was "the snippy one with the narrow face."

Over the past several weeks, I've come to see how wrong I was in my assessment of Andrew.  Not just wrong, but astoundingly wrong.  Andrew now sports a mohawk and a bro tank instead of pretentious side bangs and a quarter zip.  He holds nothing back when he sasses you.  He's friendly and funny and sometimes kind of resembles a wet noodle in his movements, and he is not at all the person I thought he was.  It's a weird feeling to realize the extent to which you are capable of misjudging a person.  It makes you think about how little you actually know about most of the people who pass through your life.  I very easily could have never seen Andrew again when the clock struck 11:30 on the IPO final, and he would forever be the snippy one with the narrow face in my mind. 


I don't have a great takeaway from this experience.  Obviously you can't go on a five-week-long voyage across the Pacific with every person you meet in order to figure out what you did and didn't get wrong about them from your initial assessment.  To some extent, you need to pass judgment on people in order to function in most social settings, so the moral of the story isn't to not judge people.  What I take away from having gotten to know Andrew better is the knowledge that people can surprise you much more than you realize.  Perhaps don't be so firm in your judgments of a person until you've filtered chlorophyll with them at 3 AM.

-Emma Gee